Behind each smile I am breaking,
Crumbling, flailing, falling,
I am crying silently as I laugh,
I am alone in the crowd,
There is not enough air outside .
The weight is crushing – it leaves bruises on my brain,
Trying to hide this all inside my head,
But I can’t stop it overflowing onto my pillows at night,
Waking me up – scaring me.
I dream about letting everything go and floating away,
Of becoming nothing.